Saturday Morning Work Blues.

First thing on the agenda for this morning.

My grandmother isn't doing to well these days. She was diagnosed with ALS (Lou Gehrig's Disease) about six months ago. The problems started before that, but the official diagnosis came later. She has just been downhill ever since. She has lost the ability to speak, walk, and feed herself. She needs help using the restroom and getting in and out of bed. She has trouble swallowing. I can tell you right now, we never think about the muscle that helps us swallow until we can't use it any longer. My grandma chokes on water. And she uses an oxygen tank to help her breathe. Most (if not all) ALS patients die in their sleep from a collapsed diaphragm (the muscle that helps us breathe). They basically suffocate to death. And there is no cure for this disease. It is horrible. Seeing her diminish like she is puts a huge hole in my heart. My last living grandparent is dying and there's nothing I can do or anyone else can do about it.

Sorry for the depression.
 
On another note, I despise waking up early on Saturdays.

I like to stay in bed until at LEAST 10:00am. At LEAST. But, alas... today I had to wake up at 7:00am to get ready to go to work. I normally don't work on Saturdays, but my coworker took the weekend off to go to some kind of convention so I volunteered for the overtime. Hey, I could use to overtime!

I am somewhat glad I woke up at 7:00am.

Especially since my stomach decided to expel all of it's acid in a timely manner. Let me tell you, for those of you that have not had the luxury of throwing up stomach acid (aka "bile"), it is HORRIBLE! So, so, SO much worse than just "regular" vomiting. I attribute it to the fact that I got out of bed too fast and had nothing in my belly. Obviously. Bah... what a lovely thing to read in the morning. You're welcome.

It is snowing... in March...

I really shouldn't be surprised by this.

I mean, it HAS snowed almost every year on my birthday *which is in April.* But really? I'm so over the snow. I'm over the cold. I'm ready for my allergies to kick back up and make me sneeze. I'm ready for my eyes to water and my nose to run. Okay, not really. But I AM ready for some slightly warmer weather. Would it KILL Mother Nature to make is a solid 60 degrees for a whole week? I don't think so.

I've noticed I have been freezing as of late.

I'm wondering if this is because my internal body temperature is messed up. I blame the over abundance of freakin' snow flurries. I also never wear an actual coat if I can help it. Perk one of working a pediatrician's office: I hardly ever get sick because I'm constantly exposed to germs. I DO get sick sometimes though. Just... rarely. Anyway. My body temperature is messed up! That's all.

This "blog" is becoming scarce.

Mainly because it started out as an infertility blog, and then we took a "break" in November so there was really nothing to write about. My life is somewhat uneventful, or just private enough that I don't want to expose all of my secrets. I had planned to start back up in February with the treatments, but that never happened. Those shots are ridiculously expensive. They have done a few rounds of blood work though, mainly checking my hormone levels and thyroid. Which the Dr. states are all "perfect" and "where they should be" for the time being. Yay me.

My goal for the year is to try and make this less scarce. I think I will definitely succeed. So please check back!